in my head.

No Internet :(

Just leaving a update to my tumblr. family - I don’t have any internet right now which is why things have been quiet. Miss you guys!

My rants on this crazy weekend.

I’m home. I’m a strong person and stuff but I really at times like everyone get depressed..

I’ve been home a few hours and I’m just unhappy. I love my Mom and my family very much but I’m just not happy living here anymore. THEN on top of all of this, my amazing little 14 year old cousin was beaten while on vacation by my aunt’s (his mom)’s boyfriends step-dad. Obviously, charges will be being pressed and all of that is under control. It just really destroyed me that I could have lost my cousin because of some psycho ass fool. He just turned 14, and I just turned 20, but that kid is one of my best friends and I think of him as a little brother! I actually had a sleepover at my aunts that night so that was a lot of fun, we played video games and watched this comedy movie with my other cousin called “18 Year Old Virgin” - it was sooo funny!

Btw, to anyone who thinks its weird that I’m 20 and I still stay over my cousins sometimes, family is family! I love my family and know that life is too short! Love to spend time with my cousins as much as I can :)

Anyway, it kept bothering me that he was bruised up and I thought It could have been worse.. Who has the right to put there hands on someone? Btw my cousin is SO tiny, immature and doesn’t even look 14 - he looks like 12 or 10! This 50 year old 300 pound asshole attacked him. Ugh makes me SO furious.

Lets move on before it makes me hunt this loser down…

I stayed at my aunts for a few days and besides being lonely and alone. I kinda loved it! I felt free and happy. I can’t wait to get my own apartment and make my own rules, be able to get my license and hang out with my cousins and everything. Anyway good luck to my little cuz tomorrow on his first day of high school! :D I can’t believe he’s in 9th grade now.. wow

Car Shopping Sunday = Epic Fail… But Fun!

So of course it’s Sunday so the car place is (dun dun dun) CLOSED! Of course, why didnt we think of that? Anyway, it was still a fun day. We got to see the car we want in the parking lot though! SO hoping we get it tomorrow. Ahh.

Oh yeah speaking of “tomorrow’, we’re going back there around 2:00 PM. with my aunt and mom. I’m excited, I just really hope our car is still there. 2 is still pretty early :)

But yeah today we had a good day. I got to see my amazing aunts and uncle, and cousin and just had a amazing time! :)

Goodnight.

Car Shopping Sunday!

Now Playing: Like Thats A Bad Thing - Danny Gokey

Not for me, sadly. But I will benefit! ;)

My mom is going car shopping tomorrow and I just HOPE we are able to get a really nice car! I’m so excited to look at the dealership :) We have our eye on this Cadillac SUV and I’m really hoping we can get that! It has heated seats, CD changer, AC on the sides of the cars, and it’s GORGEOUS! <3

We can afford it too, as long as the monthly payments aren’t too extremely high. I’m going to remain positive and hopeful! :)

Wish us luck! As you can see we NEED a new car, because I told you all about the problems we are having with this old one. I’m so excited, haha because that means it will be fun driving again!

I shouldn’t be lonely in this big ol’ world </3

I feel like writing.

Alright, so I applied at the new pet store that is opening up here and I hope I hear back from them soon. I reaaallly don’t want to have to call them but I suppose I will if I have too. I applied for the stock position.

What else.. I’m watching “House Of Wax” and if you hate this movie you can go fuck off haha just kidding, but really.. this movie is amazing. ;)

Do you guys like my new tumblr theme? I’m running out of themes and going to have to start buying the premium ones! haha but really thats a waste of money, so no I doubt I will. I will just reuse these poor people themes ;) haha. kidding!

I’m suppose to be going to work with my mom at 5 AM because we are afraid her car is going to break down and she’s taking it to get the battery charged and stuff. Pray with me everything is OKAY! <3 I do not want her car to break down, it’s really old though.

I’ve been thinking a LOT about what car company I want to deal with… I really love the new Ford cars, but my aunt just got one like a few months ago, maybe a year ago and it’s already having problems… so that kind of worries me, but I need a affordable car so I will probably still end up getting a new Ford of some sort. I am also going to look at Toyota, Honda and some other car dealerships. I want brand new, with payments, I don’t want a used car.. I just want a fresh, sexy, new one! <3

My concert is August 11 and I’m suppose to be making a fan book for my favorite singer Pia Toscano but sadly I’m not getting a lot of submissions in so I guess I am going to have to DELAY the project and just send it to her or try and go at a upcoming show or performance! IDK. I’m also broke and can’t afford to buy the fan book stuff or I won’t have my money to buy my new shoes which I need from Vans before my concert. We’re taking my aunt’s fathers car to our concert since as I said above my mom’s car isn’t too healthy right now!

I might blog again in a little, kinda in that mood :)